For over 2 decades I have been evolving a practice of empowered relating from the perspective that our very body and mind is the microcosm to the macrocosm of the world and we have the power to change life within our everyday existence. 

The result so far is  an intensive transformative relating training ecosystem to further the normalization of authentic growth culture.

My practice is informed by the holistic lenses of yoga, Ayurveda as well as alchemy, personality typology, Human Design and Gene Keys, transformational coaching, peace-making practices like nonviolent communication, strategic intervention, Cultural Anthropology of the First Peoples, community organization, Design Thinking, UX principles, life coaching, relationship science, CPTSD recovery, trauma science and its wisdom in various somatic regulation practices to help us realize the growth opportunities wherever they surface. Healing the enabler inside, the easily persuaded shapeshifter and the primal survival instinct- driven slave is no small feat, but it turns out, is exactly what is needed in the world now, more than ever.

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But it wasn't a tidy process. 

In my personal healing story, I started journalling young, noticing how my family relationships were in need of healing. Somehow, while my family moved often, we flipped homes and remade 'home' regularly. We had food intermittently and came in and out of means.  

As a child, I would walk, bus, ride and train (sometimes travelling all day) to get to various spiritual centres or churches that I would examine what made them feel like home.

Multiple churches of all kinds thought I was lost. I actually was quite fixated on how each environment either created or broke down the integrity between body, speech and mind and how each person was either resonating or not. After a lot of Christianity, I found a book at age 12 on the shamanic ritual use of hallucinogenic plants to heal various ailments returned to it often. The Tao te Ching showed up in my life at age 14, then a large book on Tantric philosophy at 15. 

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The journey then got really personal. At around age 15, I was swimming in a lake and my legs suddenly went numb. I paddled to shore, thankfully and my friends parents drove me to the hospital where the doctor said "it happens to girls your age." with no further explanation. Healing an ovarian cyst, I discovered the empowerment of Ayurveda and that my whole being understood its concepts easily and enthusiastically.  

The part of the journey that seemed like it was a triumph, took a divine pivot in design school. Second year.  When my professor and the faculty had no idea how to deal with one teammate who had hijacked control over the group's direction and silenced the team's expression, I couldn't reconcile my need to participate with consensus and the result which was traumatizing. I left school.

Privately, I knew I would always design, but I had to find out what could transform how people relate no matter the circumstance. 

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With growth comes great loss, beauty, peace, wisdom and emergent agency. With growth, comes real freedom. We tend to get stopped by loss and miss the rest until its important enough to 'go through' all the way. 

Working as a contractor and employee over twenty years, I saw many incredible solutions, dreams and initiatives die - before their time - for the same reason over and over. I also saw the rise in desirabillity towards Culture as a strategic advantage in the corporate space. 

The way relate matters.

We weren't given the toolkit to relate with a construct that allows for transformation or growth so we tend to revert to ancient drives of avoiding pain and seeking out pleasure. It takes courage to step through growth opportunities. When we don't step, our confidence sinks enough that it is easy to believe you don't have value or a gift to contribute, you feel you don't matter.  This happens to the individual and to whole cultures such as Indigenous people resorted to reserves and reinforced by bigoted beliefs and enablers.  

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The key to relating well, I have found, is by embracing being a creator; responding to life as a design project that has a possibility mindset. There we have a freedom and a structure that allows for all ingredients to have a place and for progress to be enjoyable, perspectives to be explored - not denied or judged- for collaboration.

After poverty, near homelessness, losing a child and a loving partner, a near death accident, accepting the loss of a living parent, and not knowing where I belonged, I listened to my guidance, trained in the holistic, mindfulness arts and focused through many times it would have been easier to just cope. I felt the pull to stick to what thoughts, feelings and patterns were familiar and comfortable, feel alienated, blame others and live as a victim to life happening to you not for you, as you or through you. To die not having fully lived. I didn't want to die not having lived. Reflecting on that, I found that it was only courage that would move me through. I needed to see the utility of living in the heart and to trust; to find a faith practice that rooted into all the areas of my life I didn't think faith was related.

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in my early life, I had a fire to help people get what they dreamed of, while I was finding my place. Because of that choice, my life has been magical, diverse, alive and meaningful. Now, my gift is to help others collectively make dreams happen together as part of a personal, natural journey towards becoming the authentic, fully expressed version of themselves.

Soon, if it is intended, I will help faculty and institutions create belonging and intrinsic motivation to their culture with a holistic, empowered mindset that is felt not intellectualized. 

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Choosing to serve in this way with courage hasn't eradicated challenges, it upgraded the quality of my challenges. The symptoms of this gift continue to be: deeper love, deeper trust in relationships, fulfilled work, mind-body harmony, resilience, high immunity, self-trust, increasing radical self acceptance, joy despite circumstance, enjoying the company of others vs. needing it, detachment and growth and standing firmly in one's enoughness such that they cannot be manipulated.

Ultimately, experiencing healthy power with others making dreams come true is heaven on earth.